Twin boys! Can you believe it? It was another BIG shocker!
I was excited for Pat to came along with me to the appointment and be able to see both babies on the screen. We first tried to take a look at Baby B’s gender, but couldn’t get a glimpse, so we moved to Baby A.
Baby A- I was pretty sure I started feeling a baby at the end of 14 weeks, but thought that might be a little too early. During the ultrasound it became very clear that I had been feeling this little guy. We watched him kick and squirm the entire time. He was just as HYPER as he was at my 12 week appointment. Amongst all the energy being displayed, we were told he looks as healthy as could be!
Baby B- We struggled finding out his gender. To be honest, after finding out we were already having one boy, I was secretly hoping for a girl… But we couldn’t get him to move for ANYTHING! We poked and prodded, and did everything we could. I’ve never had any of my kids sit so still. Luckily right at the end he shifted just enough to get a glimpse of his boy parts. Pat erupted into cheers! Gratefully, all of his measurements looked healthy as well.
We are so grateful for two healthy babies. They both weighed in at 5 ounces, still measuring right on for August 18th, and made their dad one proud Papa. I wish I had taken a picture of Pat, he was beaming as he talked about all three of his boys.
My reaction was… a little different. I didn’t say a word. I had been so sure there would be a girl, I didn’t know how to process the information. One of my biggest fears is never having another girl to raise, and finding out we were expecting two more boys made that fear a little more real. Both Pat and I have always wanted 4 kids, and we had decided if there was a girl (which I was sure there would be) we would probably be done having kids. It was a lot to take in at the moment, and this is why once again I was reminded that I should never plan my life out in my head. On the way home, I couldn’t help but tell Pat, I don’t want to be done having kids after this pregnancy, I want to try for at least one more girl. He said slow down, you’re not even half way done carrying two :)
By the time we arrived to my parents house to pick up Ledger, enough time had passed that I was able to process the news, and I walked in with a huge smile on my face. After a weekend away in Boise watching basketball and shopping for two little boys, I became giddy with the thought of three boys close together. Our future now holds many ball games, with a lot of rough, loud, and dirty boys.
Now on to the next thing, coming up with not only one baby name, but two.
Let the name game begin.
I'm glad you wrote how you felt about the genders, because when you wrote the results, I did ache and worry for you. When you asked us what we thought you were having I said- 2 boys, but I hoped 2 girls.
ReplyDeleteI suspected there was a huge part of you that needs a girl to raise as a part of your healing. I think having Ledger come along was perfect, that a girl at that time maybe could have been too soon, but now, maybe the time could be right. I was worried for you, if you would be okay. I KNOW you will be happy and delighted with all of your children, and will live a WONDERFUL life, but I worried part of your heart would be sad.
So I am glad you acknowledged that sadness, and then allowed yourself to get excited and happy too.
I think it's okay to think ahead and say no, you're not done yet. Or to say you haven't decided. Girls are special, and a woman deserves a girl to raise. You will still get to raise Preslee, but it's going to be some time until then, so I understand your urge!!!
My friend and her sister were both told they were having girls, and when they got in the delivery room, had boys. THeir boys went home in hot pink cutstom made car seat carriers. How about that for crazy!!!
I also was shocked when I found out I was having two boys. I thought for sure at least one was a girl, if not both. So for about 10 minutes I was a little sad that I wouldn't have my Charlotte Anne. But then of course I got super excited for two boys. I honestely couldn't be happier. They are just so much fun! Congrats again on your healthy baby boys!
ReplyDeleteTwo little boys + a big boy + a beautiful angel girl. What a sweet family you have. You look adorable. Your children are so very lucky to have such wonderful caring parents. Your children are loved on this side of the veil and also loved from beyond the veil. Those little boys are being prepped by their sister to come to YOUR family so when you see them for the first time, you will see HER in them. The love never ends!!
ReplyDeleteI can understand your disappointment about not having a girl! We have 3 boys and 1 girl as well and I was hoping my last would be another girl to balance it out...but he wasn't and he is a perfect fit for our family! 3 boys is fun and I am sooo happy that Pat was excited! 2 names! Awesome! Can't wait to hear what they are!
ReplyDeleteGlad things are going well and that they look healthy!! I am sooo excited for you guys! Much love!
You look great Ashley! I loved picking our son's name! Enjoy this time!
ReplyDeleteWho knows, maybe God has a little girl planned out for your future! The good thing about Him is, he has our lives planned out for us already so you don't have to worry about a thing! I know His plans are perfect and he will give us the desires of our heart. For know, I am rejoicing with you that you have TWO healthy babies!
ReplyDeleteAww! There are three boys in my husband's family within 3 years. They had a blast growing up, I love hearing their hilarious stories. Everyone is almost 30 now and it's still a lot of fun! All three are married and us sister-in-laws are really tight, we can sit around and compare stories about our husbands :) Our kids are around the same age and play together as well. So yeah, I've said since we got married I would LOVE three boys close together. So I hope you guys have a blast!!!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the news of your boys! You look amazing!
ReplyDeleteI always love your openness and honesty! And I think everyone when they find out the gender has to take a moment and realize/process they aren't going to have either the boy or girl depending. And its completely understandable that you would hope for a girl in the future! Maybe this is Heavenly Father's way of helping you have one more!!
ReplyDeleteI spent all weekend waiting for you gender reveal and its too giddy that your having two boy, but I was worried about how you were really feeling that there wasnt a little girl in their. I've never lost a child that was in my arms (i had 2 m/c) so I don't know you pain in that. I however have two girls 18m apart and we are done, dh got a vasectomy the other day and I will never know how it feels to raise a boy. I have 6 nephews that i get a taste of, but it's bot the same. You will however get three beautiful daughter (in laws) who will birth you beautiful grandchildren so I believe not matter what one day you will have your girl. I also see you got the twins matching outfits match ledger with them two. I only get my girls matching outfits and everyone always loves it. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteI had four boys in four years. I am a single mom of this quorum of mine. I don't understand... AT ALL... what your feelings are for sweet Preslee and wanting to have another girl. Please know that I don't understand any of that. What I do know is that I love having boys so close together. They either love each other or hate each other... but they CANNOT live without each other and I feel so blessed to have my quorum. You're loved and prayed for every day!
ReplyDeleteAs excited as I am for you (and I am! And REALLY excited for little Ledger and those boys!!), my heart hurts a little knowing that there wasn't a girl in there for you. I'm so glad you had the courage to acknowledge it. And don't worry, nobody thinks less of you. In fact, just the opposite. We are all only HUMAN! People who haven't lost a little girl or boy acknowledge being disappointed for a moment when they learn their baby's gender. And having lost a child myself, I know how natural it is to feel like the child you lost "can't" be the only girl/ boy we get to raise. You cannot plan your life, but you are allowed to dream. You are such a wonderful mom. Your boys and beautiful girl are so lucky! And, it goes without saying you are the most beautiful pregnant woman I've nearly ever seen. XOXO
ReplyDeleteYou will know in your heart when your family is complete. Trying again with your's and Pat's track record might score you 2 more boys!!! :-)
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I had my twins back in March of 1980. Not only did we not know we were expecting twins; didn't find out until 10 minutes before they were delivered. They were our first chldren, and girls. During my pregancy my mother joked that I had enough clothes to outfit twins.
ReplyDeleteCongrads to both of you.
First off, you look amazing! I think you are a very beautiful girl and especially when you are pregnant. Very cute babies bump :)
ReplyDeleteI think you are such a wonderful person, your honesty about life makes me so humble. I for sure thought you would have two girls, and I get the point where you would love to raise one. I am so happy that you are not done having babies, yes Pat is right, maybe you should have these cute little guys first but I have 5 kids myself and I think you would be a great mom to 5 :) So keep trying for another little girl....
On another note, I can testify that you will love and enjoy having three boys so close together. My two boys are two years apart (15 and 13) and are the best of friends, and I LOVE going to all their sporting games! Baseball is my favorite and I sure will miss it when they are both grown up and gone because I have 3 girls that are girlie girls and I don't see softball in their future. These little boys will become the highlight of your life! Congrats on 2 healthy babies, that is after all what matters most :) :) :) And as far as names go, I know you will pick out two very cute fitting names.
you look so beautiful! enjoy your sweet little men..they are so special! i believe there is another precious girl in your future. i cannot wait to find out their names...you pick such great ones!
ReplyDeleteHi Ashley!
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to congratulate you on your sweet little boys. What a blessing!
I too have three little boys and share your desire and dream raising a little girl.
After my little girl, Madeline passed away and we became pregnant again, I thought for sure God would bless us with another little girl. I was positive. Then at the ultrasound we were informed baby boy #3 was on the way... I was shocked!
I was like you, quiet, scared and unsure I would ever get to raise a little girl in my lifetime.
But I'm not giving up hope and just waiting on the Lord if it's in His will to happen in His time...It's so hard and doubts do come, but I sure do hope that's in the plan for both of us. =)
In the mean time, I'm just LOVING being the Mama to three precious little boys. Brothers are the best! =)
Best wishes to you and your sweet family. I enjoy reading your blog and I definitely think you shouldn't be "done" either.. =) You have the most beautiful children. Your little Preslee's picture touches my heart so much. What a beautiful doll baby. There sure are a lot of preious baby girls that I know of waiting for us in Heaven. What a sweet day that will be when we are together again.
God bless you and your precious family.
Much Love,
Natalie Ross (Maddie Grace's Momma)
I'm 19 weeks with my second and wanted a girl with this pregnancy so badly as well, our oldest is a boy. When we found out it was a boy I'll admit I was a little sad too, but now I'm just as ecstatic to be adding another little guy to our family and ready to start buying blue :)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your little men & welcome to the life of being outnumbered! :)
You look amazing! I can't wait to hear the names you decide on. I'm sure they will be unique as Ledger :)
ReplyDeleteI have a boy and a girl. In my first pregnancy I wanted a girl. Just because I had a beautiful mother/daughter bond with my mother. I had a son and bonded. Three years later whether a boy or girl I was done. Thank God I got my little girl.
I have a friend that has 2 girls and wants 4 kids total but if the next 2 are girls she will try a 5th time for a boy :)
Wishing you and your boys the best.
I have always wanted a little girl, and I thought FOR SURE that our #2 was a girl. What a shock at that ultrasound! I was happy that HE was healthy but in my heart of hearts I was sad, too. First of all, I was "mom" so how did I get the gender thing so wrong? Second, I wanted a girl to dress and to girly things with (I'm a girly girl).
ReplyDeleteMy consolation has come, as now we are our third boy and zero girls, that I have no influence in the gender- and, really, neither does my husband. Yes, I know genetically speaking his body "controls" the sex. But Heavenly Father really controls those X and Y chromosomes, and He is perfect. He perfectly know what "type" of children we need and when we need them. I find great peace in this. And while three boys three and under (my current situation) is so very, very daunting/exhausting and I doubt myself, I have to remember that Heavenly Father knows what He's doing; He has faith in me, and He knows what my family needs. Just like He knows what you and Pat need. <3
We never found out the genders beforehand. We preferred to have that delivery room surprise. We had a boy, then 19 months later, another boy. When we found out that we were expecting a third we assumed we knew how to make boys and named the new one Jack. Imagine our surprise to meet Natalie instead! As much as we delighted in our pink girl, I will say I mourned the Jack who didn't arrive. We had planned on three and done. We almost chained our minds and tried again because we missed Jack!
ReplyDeleteBoys, Boys, Boys! Your boys will be best friends. Glad you were able to process it; you have had a lot to take in lately! I can't imagine having twins; what a blessing!
ReplyDeleteI am pregnant with my 2nd child and my first is a boy.. he is so precious, but I desperately want a girl, so I understand your desire.. though I am sure you ache more a little girl in your arms again. Just know that God has a great plan for you! You are so strong and such an inspiration. Praying for you!
We just found out we are having two boys too! Congrats!
ReplyDeleteWe just found out we are having two boys too! Congrats!
ReplyDeleteCongrats! I'm a momma of 5 boys...yes 5!!! lol I really wanted to see "girl" all over my last ultrasound! So, I know how you feel. I was a bit upset after finding out another boy. But, when the handed him to me after delivery I was in love!!!! We are at the ball park 24/7 and trucks are galore! But I wouldn't trade anything! Your boys will be best friends! Congrats again!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the boys!!!! I thought my second was a girl for sure and everyone in my family kept telling me they thought I was having a girl and when I found out he was a boy, I was slightly sad but then I went shopping and I was SO happy to be having another boy and couldn't help but feel relieved that Lincoln would get to have a brother for a best friend. My husband had twl little sisters and he wishes he had a brother. Ledger gets two! I've always kind of dreamed of having twins and I always wanted them to be the same gender. I'm totally jealous! P.s you glow when you're pregnant and are so dang cute!
ReplyDeleteAlthough I haven't been in your shoes.....I can completely see how that would be hard for you. Praying that you continue to find joy and excitement and that God fills that "girl" void for the time being. :)
ReplyDeleteThat smile on your face tells everything.
ReplyDeleteHi Ashley. You don't know me. I went to school about a year ahead of Pat, and I just happened to stumble across your blog via Facebook. I just read through Preslee's story, and I'm in tears. I have to tell you I'm impressed with the way you are fulfilling your moral obligation as a wife and mommy and remaining happy with what you have, as opposed to lamenting how much you have lost. I cannot imagine your pain.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your healthy pregnancy, and my fingers are crossed for you to get a little girl on the next go-round. If not, you are more than welcome to borrow one of mine! (Especially once they are teenagers! hah!) :) Best wishes to you, and much respect to you and Pat.
Hi Ashley, I was hoping you would get another little girl. I had 4 boys and then a girl! I always felt so sorry for anyone who had 4 boys until I met mine! What a wonderful thing it is to be the queen of the castle! You will be so loved, so honored, and protected by not just 1 but 4 special men! I will say that I think it would be a lot easier to have twin boys than any other combination. Also it will be a lot more cost effective :) I am like you, I was so anxious to have my family and to know what my next baby would be. I hope too that you will get another beautiful girl to raise here on earth. Can't wait to follow your twin journey! how exciting in and of it self! Sure does make you realize that we are not in charge! As far as names go I love names! I have a name blog if you want to check it out www.babynamegame.blogspot.com Good luck! Best wishes for a healthy happy pregnancy and beautiful baby boys!!!!
ReplyDeleteSo excited for you! I have a set of twins-but they are 4 turning 5. Let me tell ya, they sure are a "hand full" and you will need plenty of assistance! But they are a blessing in every single way! ....By the way-are your boys identical or fraternal? Sorry if you mentioned it and I missed it. --linz
ReplyDeleteYou look great! Just glowing! can't believe you are having twin boys! So fun to buy for!!
ReplyDeletewoohooo boy names u dont know me but I have been following your blog for awhile now. I have 3 friends expencting so lots of names Hudson,Maverick,Harper,Holden,Tristan,Bryson,Cash,Colby,Kolton,Leighton,Lawson, Able (SAMCRO FAN)
ReplyDeleteI have 4 boys & it's no secret that I would love nothing more then to have little girl. But oh my how I love my boys & how the love me. Even my oldest who is 14 still shows & tells me he loves me. Our house is always loud & crazy. We are always running from one thing to another. But I love it! I love being the only girl & being treated like a princess:) you are going to love it & they will love you like nothing else!
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog for awhile now and am always inspired by what you have to say and your perspective on life. When I saw you were expecting twins I felt like we should be friends because I'm currently pregnant with twins, and it's twin boys for that matter! Even though they are our first, I can relate to thinking for sure there's got to be a girl in there somewhere! I had myself convinced I was having two girls and was completely shocked when we had our appointment and found out I'd be having two little boys! It took a couple of days to adjust but I think twin boys is about the best thing ever. (Our first thoughts were about all the fantastic duos for Halloween costumes! Does it get much better than Woody and Buzz? Or Calvin and Hobbs? Or Clark Kent and Superman?)Anyway, I wish you the best and can't wait to see your sweet little boys when they come!
ReplyDeleteTwin boys are so fun!! Good luck on names! We struggled naming ours. We used our only agreed on boy name for my first, so coming up with two more (that sound good together) was a challenge! Hopefully you and Pat agree on more names then my husband and I! I also was hoping one of my twins was a girl. Three boys is overwhelming. But fun! I have an incredible amount of baby boy things that my twins are out of, or will be soon. If you need anything email or facebook me! I am wanting to get rid of a ton...
ReplyDeleteMy twin boys just turned 3! Congrats!
ReplyDeleteThere will never be a dull moment in your house, that's for sure!