The other day I let Ledger watch a little TV.
Suddenly it was like a flashback, where I saw Preslee watching her beloved Sesame Street in my mind. Then tonight I came across this picture, which I absolutely love, because it's so her. And I love that it has Abby Cadabby on the screen, her absolute favorite.
It's funny how the messes she used to make would often frustrate me. She pulled everything off that bookshelf multiple times a day. Living 11 months childless, and clutter free, now makes me appreciate Ledger's daily mess.
Though I've tried not to think about it, this upcoming week marks the date she's been gone longer than we had her here with us. I've been reminiscing through pictures tonight.
Sometimes it's just hard to believe this is our life.
This is our story.
We miss you little Miss JoJo, I sure hope you are incredibly happy. I often wish I could take a peek and see what life is like for you. I'm certainly glad it's us, and not you hurting and grieving.
We love you...
you are such a good mommy to both your babies...I'll be thinking of you and your family as always. Stay strong
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ReplyDeleteIt just never quits hurting, does it? Thankful for your precious memories and that we serve a God who gives us the strength to go on.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you xx
ReplyDeleteIt's looks like it's going to be a bitter/sweet week for you. Hopefully more sweet than bitter though. Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteWow Ashley, what a tender post. Prayers for your family this difficult week. Your optimism is so inspiring. Ledger and Preslee are so lucky to have you for their mom!
ReplyDelete{{{HUGS}} Such sweet photos!
ReplyDeletewhat sweet memories you have of your Preslee. What a little doll she is - perfect in every way. Those memories and your new memories you have of your son will help keep you strong. You are a wonderful young woman and those of us who read and watch your blog feel your strength and your faith. Thank you.
ReplyDeletei have chills. i don't know how you do it with such grace and beauty.
ReplyDeleteAs the bitter sweet tears run down OUR faces when we think of the precious angels we have sent back to heaven it is a tender mercy in our lives but we must continue to hold fast to the iron rod and know that we will be with them again and that our Heavenly father not only watches over them but he watches over us. You are a great example to many and your little handsome Leger is such a sweet heart I wished I could hug him and kiss him as my own grandbaby Your Mom is a LUCKY grandma and so is Patricks mom... Will think of you this week and you know that Heavenly father not only walks beside you he will carry you as well You will be in my thoughts and prayers this week and always
ReplyDeleteAwe...hope this week turns out to be a great week remembering how sweet and precious she was and how much she has blessed your lives! Even though you can't see her, its nice to be assured that she is happy and hopes you guys will be too. We love you guys so much
ReplyDeleteThat pic of her on the playground is pure JOY! You can see the adventure she is having in her facial expression. This week will be great! Thanks for your blog.
ReplyDeleteI am so so grateful to have you as a friend! You have taught me so much in this short time that I've known you and I know Preslee is so proud of the strength and example you and Pat offer to others around you. You've taught me so much about appreciating the little things. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteAsh and Pat, we love you guys so much. We have been thinking of you guys all week and know that it must be a hard week for you both. Praying that you can get through this difficult time with the help of the Lord, Ledger, and all of us who love you so much. Thinking of that sweet little girl tonight... Miss you Pres.
ReplyDeleteLove Aunt Linsy and Uncle Jamie
Beautiful post although they bring tears i love seeing pictures of Preslee such a beautiful and energetic girl. Keep posting. x
ReplyDeleteI love your blog and speak of you as a 'friend' if I ever mention anything I read on your blog. I know you are hurting, and I cannot imagine. However, I think of you and pray for you daily. Your story and attitude has made me a better Mommy. I want to say THANK YOU for sharing your story. I check your blog every few days to 'check on you' (I know that sounds crazy). I have a baby girl who is the same age as sweet Ledger. I hope you feel a sense of strength as another hard date is in your future. Sincerely, Mandi Courington
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking about you a lot lately. Time is such a strange thing. To think that Pres has been gone longer than she lived is so hard for me to grasp. How is it that time can go so slowly and yet so quickly? I look at Ilzay and I am always wondering how she got to be so old so fast. I hope you are doing okay and hanging in there.
ReplyDeleteI have a friend who lost a child and she tries to keep track of time not by how long the child has been gone but that each year she is one year closer to seeing her child again. So in that way she tries to celebrate the time that has passed because in essence it is getting her closer to the day she will be reunited with her child. I kind of wonder if it were me in that situation if I would be able to look at it from that perspective. ?? I don't know.
Anyways....I know it still hurts.
Aren't you so grateful to live during a time where you have so many photos and videos of Preslee? What a blessing that is. Sure do love her cute pics. I am sure they are hard to look at but so wonderful to have at the same time.
Ashley I am the grandma of Ethne Stone. So interesting that you would post on their blog as Melissa and I have followed your blog for over a year. We rejoiced when you were pregnant and loved your strength through it all. Thank you for taking the time to post to Melissa. I miss my granddaughter with an ache that few can understand, but can't wait for the reunion we will have on the other side. Thank you again. Shauna Humphrey
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