My friend shared her so called "motto" with me. "I CAN DO HARD THINGS." I say it to myself over and over everyday.
Life is hard, but we must endure it. Sometimes I feel sorry for those around me trying to support me. I know they try to figure out how I'll react to different situations beforehand. But I must admit that predicting the outcome must be nearly impossible, because I have no idea how I'll react until I'm in the moment.
There have been some places I knew would be difficult to visit without Preslee. The first night back from PCMC, Pat begged me to visit the canal. After much hesitation, I took Pat's hand and walked outside his dad's house with him. As we approached the canal, the anxiety and fear quickly disappeared and we were both filled with a strong peace. I felt almost as if Pres was saying, "mom and dad I was just fine." At that moment I was able to forgive myself for going out on a date that night and not being there for her when she needed me most. This experience taught me that avoiding the places which make me think of Preslee isn't going to help me in any way. So these last couple of weeks I've geared up and visited many of the places that I have sweet memories of her. I tell myself, "I CAN DO HARD THINGS" right before I go in. Sometimes I am able to do it, and other times I leave with tears streaming down my face. But then the next time I go doesn't seem so hard.
Or it's those times that sneak up on you when you never expect it- and for a split moment you forget she's gone. Like when I went to Subway and found myself ordering extra extra olives, because Preslee loved olives! Once I sat down to eat it, I started collecting them to give to her when it hit, she's not here...
So yesterday as I left zumba, I noticed I had missed a call from Pat's brother Jamie. He isn't a morning person so I knew his wife Linsy, who is almost a week over due, must be in labor! She was and had checked into EIRMC, where Preslee was life-flighted the first time. The thought of that hospital brought back strong emotions. I stewed over the information and wondered if I could handle going to the hospital, and to see a new baby. Lately, I haven't wanted much to do with any babies. Then suddenly the phrase popped into my head, "I CAN DO HARD THINGS."
When I walked in and saw little Ivy, I was overcome by so many different emotions. I immediately longed for my baby. My arms literally ached to hold Preslee. As Ivy was handed to me, I felt such a peace. I could have held her all night. Newborns come with just a little bit of heaven and for a moment I felt as if I was holding the closest thing to Preslee. She has a strong little spirit. Then I was filled with such a hope that Pat and I won't be empty nesters for long. Even though I know the next baby won't fill the void, it will definitely help.
When you find yourself in a difficult situation remember the phrase, "I CAN DO HARD THINGS." It's possible. Life is hard, we just have to learn how to plow through it.
We couldn't be happier for Jamie and Linsy to experience Parenthood. She's beautiful. Welcome to the fam Ivy! We love you!
Ashley- I am positive that you can do anything and everything you set your mind and heart to do. Prayers for you and your continued strength
ReplyDeleteYou can do all things through Christ who strengthens you! Philippians 4:13
ReplyDeleteYou are a very strong, admirable woman. When reminded of Preslee's sweet spirit, I pray that God will continue to fill your heart with strength and peace.
Those little things might be Preslee's reminder to you that she's not too far. :-) She's constantly watching over you both.
What a beautiful post! So glad that Linsy had her baby and everything's okay! (I worked with her at Bridgewater this year. I was at her babyshower, I don't know if you remember me or not, but that's oaky!) You CAN do hard things! You've proven that already! Keep strong guys :) I'm sure a baby will be so sweet for you two some day soon. :)
ReplyDeleteAshley,
ReplyDeleteI have said so many times to myself through really trying times, "I can do hard things!" That was our girls camp theme last year with Trish Gannaway. There is a talk by I think Sister Beck that was titled, "I can do hard things and at the end of her talk she changed it to "In the Strength of the Lord, I can do ALL things!" so...that is what we talked about all week at camp last year with the young women. Funny thing is..I needed it just as much if not more than the great young women of our ward!
I just went to Deseret Book with all my kids and Raymond's kids for them to look at some books a few minutes ago and I saw President Uchtdorf's new book. I read the back and there was a quote on the back by him that I wrote down on the back of a receipt since it was the only paper I had on hand. It went along with your post on service. I am going to hang it on my fridge or in my bedroom. It's this:
"In the end, the number of prayers we say may contribute to our happiness, but the number of prayers we answer may be of greater importance."
Thanks for your continued strength..you help me so much to keep going when life gets hard and my life is nothing compared to what you're going through.
I love you tons Ash! Can't wait till you can be blessed with another sweet baby! You guys are great!
Katie
Thanks Ashley.. once again, another beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteThat was a beautiful post. I admit I cried! I am Jeff Olsen's mom :) So often over the last month I have thought about you and prayed a silent prayer for your strength! I know that I don't know you personally but Jeff and Ashlee sure talk highly about you and how much they love you. Thanks for the reminder that "I can do hard things" I think I will take that as my motto also! Have a happy day :)
ReplyDeleteAll of your posts continue to show what an amazing person you are and how much The Lord loves you and has faith in you and trusts you. He knows you're capable of this and He's with you every step of the way. You're incredible!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the great reminder. It is easy to feel sorry for yourself when life gets hard. You are a wonderful example of having an Eternal perspective. We are here to learn and grow and "we can do hard things".
ReplyDeleteI don't know you, but have followed your blog since little Preslee passed away. Just the other day I got a call about a friend from high school. She had lost her 4 year old in a drowning accident just last Friday. I immediately sent her a link to your blog. I hoped that if you could help me with my perspective about my small trials, then your blog may help her in this very difficult time.
So, Thank you! Your testimony is inspiring.
As mama's who have had to give our babies back to Jesus, we find that we can do more difficult things than we ever knew existed. You are often in my prayers. The pain is beyond comprehension. The motto that we have chosen since Laynee died is "God is good........all the time." It was whispered in my ear just before we made the decision to cease rescusitation efforts and it has stuck with through this entire journey.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, knowing that you will continue to do hard things.
What a beautiful post. I love the positive attitude. I will defintately have to start saying this to myself. Thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteAshley, you know how to make a girl cry. I've been reading your blog since after the accident. My daughter is almost exactly two years older then Preslee and she's our only child too. Your journey over this last month is every parent's worst nightmare... I commend you for going to the hard places. I feel lost when I go to Walmart without my daughter. I find myself shopping the toy isles alone. =) Please tell Pat even if you guys never have another child (I'm sure you will) that he will always be a daddy. Preslee not being her in the flesh doesn't change his title. There are many undercover parents around. Those whose baby was born sleeping or like a friend's son only lived for nine days. There are also those of us who can't get pregnant naturally. My husband and I have 14 babies in Heaven and one here with us. Few know the Duggars have little on our family. They hold their children here on earth and we will hold ours in Heaven. I'm sorry, I'm rabbit trailing. I really felt like commenting when I read the part about not wanting much to do with babies. I can completely relate. After all our failed cycles (fertility treatments) and lost babies seeing round pregnant bellies and little bundles can be hard to take. I've yet to hold a child and lose it so I won't pretend to fully understand, but I will say seeing other babies does get easier.
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you and Pat.
You're an inspiration. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteAshley - I do not know you but saw your blog on a friends Bloglist and my heart broke for you when I have gone back and read your story. You are such an inspiration and this post just reminds me of how we have to go on. I have lost 2 sons (my 1st son at a week old almost 8 1/2 years ago and my last son was stillborn this past November) This is something I am going to remind myself everyday.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Jamilyn
2angelsandamiracle.blogspot.com
Thank You again Ash, for making me cry. I keep coming back to your blog, to 'check' on you and to draw on your strength. You have never let me down....and I think I may have found a new motto!!!
ReplyDeleteMany Thanks,
Ashley, I seriously needed that quote so bad right now. I have not had to go through the impossible things you guys are dealing with but in my own little way, life has been super hard this week. I check your blog often looking for strength and to feel the spirit and love. It happens every time I "stop by" I continue to pray for you guys and am so grateful you have been able to bless me with the writings on your blog even though that was never your direct intention. I am so happy for you and your upcoming vacation! I hope you have a blast.
ReplyDeleteYou may be finding opportunities to give service in your community but you are also doing it here on your blog by strengthening all of us. Please put this all in a book or something!
You are absolutely amazing and I cannot tell you how much I admire everything about you. I too hope that you are not empty nesters for long. I believe Preslee is preparing those little ones that are soon to be yours for this world. I hope you have an amazing trip with your husband, and the two of you can smile and have a great time! Take care.
ReplyDeleteEach time I read your blog my eyes weep. I know you don't know me, but for some reason I check your blog all the time to see how you and Pat are doing.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you got to be so close to heaven for a moment. And that your moment of returning to the canal was a beautiful peaceful moment with your husband. You remind me that I too can do hard things.
Thank you.
~Brittany Hepworth~
Ashley, you are such an amazing person. Every blog entry I read, I come very close to tears. I hope that I can become stronger like you. You are obviously very close to Heavenly Father and your faith is what has gotten you through this. I wish my husband and I personally knew you guys so that we could feel your strength and learn more. But, for now, we'll just have to do that through your blog. Thanks for all the things you say.
ReplyDeleteYou are awesome, those feelings of hesitation are very normal and it is hard to think that for everyone else life goes on when it feels as though yours has stopped, I am in awe of you and I thank Heavenly Father every day for letting my path cross with yours, what a sweet person you are!!!!! Have fun with your hubby and enjoy your trip! I still need your addy so I can send you this book, if you want to email me first, I can reply to yours and get this book to you!!!! clufftifani2@gmail.com hugs
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you're AMAZING...nuff said! :)
ReplyDeletethanks for the great post! your posts always give me a reality check and make my day better.
I too have been reading your blog since the accident and I want to thank you for your strength and testimony. Yesterday I came across a quote from Neal A. Maxwell
ReplyDelete"Faith in God includes faith in His timing".
I dont know why but I felt like I should share that with you.
Anyway, thank you again for sharing your "life" with those of us that are strangers to you but you really have made me try harder to be a better mother to my 5 boys!
Reading your posts make me want to be such a better person everytime I read them. I love you. You look beautiful in that picture also!
ReplyDeleteI've heard of saying "best day ever" also. I sometimes yell it out in the car when I'm really tired and down. It helps quite a bit actually. I even make my kids yell it if they are really grumpy. Now i'll probably start thinking the "I can do hard things" prase as well. Thanks for the post.
ReplyDeleteYou guys are such amazing people and inspire me to become a better person. Thanks so much for your positive words and uplifting messages. I truly enjoy to read you posts. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteYou guys are such amazing people and inspire me to become a better person. Thanks so much for your positive words and uplifting messages. I truly enjoy to read you posts. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing, love yall!
ReplyDeleteSuch a great message! We allow ourselves to grow the most by doing the things we don't think we can. We should not pray for tasks that meet our abilities but rather abilities that meet our tasks. I pray that you continue to find strength & peace through Preslee and a loving Saviour who knows the pain you are feeling.
ReplyDeleteYou have such a glow about you, and you can see it in the picture, you are such a beautiful person inside and out. You two will be such amazing parents to your future children. That was such a wonderful post... Love ya doll.
ReplyDeleteWow.. what a hard thing to do. I experienced a hard thing in my life (nothing compared to loosing a child of course) and it was difficult to return to the scene. This has inspired me to allow myself to "Do Hard Things". Thank you so much for sharing this. I'm sorry it's still so rough I can't imagine the physical and emotional pain you two must feel not having her in your arms. But I know she is always with you. I pray for you every night and for Preslee. I always pray that you have the strength to make it through just one more day. I know if I were in your shoes, I would need prayers like that. So I always have your family in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI had a teacher in high school once, who's sister-in-law lost her baby boy to medical reasons. It wasn't the same reason as you guys but she has lost a child. She has her son's story on her own blog and posts about him frequently. Like you, she's still dealing with daily emotional pains and getting through the little things and reminders of her child.
She often gives amazing advice and stories on how she's kept her chin up, how to enjoy life to it's fullest and how to still love the new baby she has here with her while keeping her first baby's memory alive and never forgetting her baby that's in heaven. I hope you might be able to get some really great and helpful advice from her and her baby's story. Her blog is lindsaybailey.blogspot.com. I know she'd be so happy to help you since she has a sense of what you're going through.
Good luck to you both and I wish you the very best always.
Ashley, I know you don't know me very well, but I feel like I know you through reading your blog. You are such an amazingly strong and inspiring person. I can't imagine the void you must have in your life without sweet little Preslee, but you are soo brave for visiting the places that are both hard for you and bring back precious memories of your little girl. Every time I read your posts you make me cry! I still pray for you and Pat every day and we love you guys soo much!
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You don't know me, but this quote given to us by a Stake President was a huge comfort to me when my dad passed away. I hope it will help you too. I'm amazed by your strength and hope Heavenly Father continues to bless you with peace and comfort and the knowledge that your little girl still lives.
ReplyDeleteSpirits from across the Veil
"Pres. Joseph. F. Smith said that we are "closely related" to those who have preceded us into the spirit world. They "can see us better than we can see them; they know us better than we know them.--I claim that we live in their presence; they see us; they are solicitous of our welfare. They love us now more than ever." (Gospel Doctrine p. 430) "Our fathers and mothers, brothers, sisters (I will add children) and friends who have passed away from this earth, having been faithful and worthy to enjoy these rights and privileges, may have a mission given them to visit their relatives and friends upon the earth again, bringing from the divine Presence messages of love, of warning, of reproof and instruction to those who they had learned to love in the flesh." (Journal of Discourses 22:351).
Thank you for your strength! I, like many others, have found strength and renewed faith from reading your posts. You are an amazing woman! And I have acquired my new motto as well :)
ReplyDeleteI lost my first husband in a car accident 5 years ago and I can remember many times when I didn't think that I could do those hard things. Like returning to the place that we crashed, or cleaning out his closet. I got through them all, and now I've been blessed with a wonderful husband and my sweet baby girl who is the same age as yours was. I cry every time I read your blog, and pray for you daily. Keep your faith and rely on the strength that only Christ can give you and I know that you will get through all of those difficult times and be blessed with joy and happiness again in your lives. And you will appreciate it so much more after such a difficult trial. Hold on, your rainbow will come after you've endured the storm.
ReplyDeleteYou are touching more lives than you know, I know that I've been holding my baby close more often and find more patience in myself since reading your story.
With love from a stranger,
Kindy
Ashley! Thank you for sharing that! It was exactly what I needed to hear and be reminded of. You are just wonderful! I admire and look up to you so much.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your sweeet thoughts! Most of these comments have covered what I have been thinking and feeling for your family! I can't imagine the roller coaster ride that you may feel you are on at times, but I admire your courage and strength. Thank you for sharing your thougths, which in turn inspire us all and make us want to be better people, women, wives, and most of all, for me, a better mother. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteAshley dear - I am constantly amazed at the strength of your spirit. I am grateful for the constant reminder from you of the little lessons learned along the way. Thank you for sharing your insight into these very difficult moments in your life. You are exactly right, that it is when we do hard things that we grow. It isn't when things are going along smoothly that we find out who we are. It is when we are made to stretch and bend in ways we never thought we could that we find those "muscles" that move us forward. You are incredible. Preslee is very blessed to have such wonderful people as her parents. But I think she already knows that.
ReplyDeleteKim Edelmayer
Ashley you are such an inspiration to me, thank you for sharing all you have been through! Even though I haven't seen you since high school your example has helped change my life for the better and I just wanted you to know that. Hang in there, you are so strong and I know Heavenly Father must have great things in store for you and your family!
ReplyDelete-Emily Hodgen
This is beautiful. You CAN do hard things, and I most definitely needed this reminder. I am SO glad you had the most tender moment with little Ivy. Babies DO bring a piece of heaven with them. I am quite sure Preslee sent her down with kisses for you.
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing!!! We say that in our home as well.... "I Can Do Hard Things" You continue to bless other people through your example of enduring and learning about lifes lessons. If you can do the hard things that you have experienced in the last month, then I can certainly endure mine.
ReplyDeleteLove Michelle Christensen
You two are amazing. It was really great to see you other day! I like this motto, thanks for sharing it. Please let us know if we can do anything for you. Have so much fun in Mexico! I'm pretty jealous!
ReplyDeleteThe first thing I noticed in the picture of you holding little Ivy is her wide newborn eyes staring straight up at you as if to reassure you that all is well. I am sure she and Preslee have spent this last month together and you will feel a connection to Preslee through Ivy that perhaps you could feel in no other way. Thank you for your example of faith and courage. Doing the hard things is what makes us who Heavenly Father needs us to be and brings us closer to heaven.
ReplyDeleteBoth of you are beautiful and amazing. This made me cry so much, and I am in awe of you. I pray that your family have continued blessings.
ReplyDeleteI love that phrase. Thanks for sharing... I will use it.
ReplyDeleteOH Ashley - you are amazing!! You don't know how much you are helping lots of people out in this big world with your strength and faith. Thank you so much for sharing!! The song that plays, "I am a child of God" is just beautiful!! Please know that we are praying for your family!
ReplyDeleteHi Ashley, I have been looking at your blog the past month...I'm a friend of Alisha's. I love everything you post and find myself in tears (sometimes sobbing) everytime I read something new. My heart breaks for your family, and your strength has inspired me. Thank you for updating so often. You are all still in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing, Ashley. Simply amazing. Though I am not experiencing anything nearly as difficult as you have, I will remember this phrase and know that if you can handle what you have with such grace and faith, I can surely make it through.
ReplyDeleteMy prayers are always with you!
I love the comment that a previous poster said. "I believe Preslee is preparing those little ones that are soon to be yours for this world." What a wonderful image. I completely agree! That's what she MUST be doing! Sending you best wishes always in your grief and strength.
ReplyDeleteAshley, you are a true inspiration to me...thank you.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great phrase to live by!! I couldn't help but just bawl as I read this post!! It would be sooo hard to go through what you are-- But just keep telling yourself that you can get through hard things and you will be able to do it!! You are so brave!! I know I could not be as strong as you if I were in your shoes. I am glad you felt peace when your new niece was in your arms. I am sure that Preslee was right there with her as she came to earth and as you were holding her!
ReplyDeleteI hope you guys have a great time on your trip! You deserve it!!
you look adorable. Love this post..and all your past posts. that have taught me so much about life perspective, especially with my job. you are amazing-love you both! have a BLAST in Mexico! you deserve it :)
ReplyDeleteI don't know you but I know one of your friends and I followed her blog here. What Amazing faith you have. I know just as you do, that you aren't alone through this experience. It still takes incredible strength and courage to be as faithful to the Lord as you are. I know that you will be blessed for it.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the beautiful post. I will admit every time I read you blog I find myself crying. Even though I have never met you, you have been such an inspiration to me. You have such an amazing and strong testimony, thank you so much for sharing it.
ReplyDeleteOh Ashley, You have such a way with words. I agree with everyone else when I say that you inspire me to be a better person. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us all. And Enjoy Mexico! You totally deserve it!
ReplyDeleteOh my Ashley--we must be on the same level of thinking lately! I promise I didn't see thus before my FB post today!!! Too cute!
ReplyDeleteP.S. You are an angel...the way you view life, how you mothered Preslee, how you grieve her...in every word you write, I hear an angel! And yes, you can do hard things! Much love!
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me. I found your blog when blog-hopping from a friends blog--someone who had asked for prayers for your family. As I skimmed over your last few weeks I was touched and overcome with tears. I am truly sorry for your loss. What a precious, beautiful daughter you have! Your strength and endurance are inspiring! You will hold your little one again one day! Keep the faith!
ReplyDelete-Your Sister in the gospel
Hi Ashley,
ReplyDeleteI just read your comment on my blog. My friends name is Jeanette Liddell. She has a blog, but it isn't current. Most of her communication is done through her facebook page. You could look her up that way or their e-mail address is: jnjliddell@gmail.com.
Thanks! Tara
You ARE and angel. I wish I could carry my cares with such poise. I know you feel like you're broken, but you radiate what we should all hold to when we are broken.
ReplyDeleteAshley and Pat! You guys are amazing! Thank you so much for sharing that phrase!
ReplyDeleteBy the way I'm so glad you guys get to go to Mexico!
We have never met, but I have read your blog lately. It breaks my heart that you had to go through that.
ReplyDeleteAbout the time you were going through everything in the hospital, I was going through some testing and such with my oldest child and found out for sure that he has autism. Not as tragic as losing a child, but still very hard...especially since my future is now so very uncertain and my life is, and always will be, filled with the pain of not seeing him be able to do everything other kids can. However, I came across a quote the other day and I thought I would share it with you.
"We must come to accept that the unexpected will occur--and dream anyway."
We can all do hard things even though it's really not what we want to do. But how else would we prove to Heavenly Father and the Savior that we are willing to follow Them no matter what! I hope you and your family will find more and more comfort each day :)
♥C.A.
Deareast Ashley.... I sure admire what you have learned through this difficult time and allowed the spirit to help you type it just perectly on yout blog for others to see! I believe you are being prepared to teach and counsel many many people in this troubled world. You are amazing, and that word doesn't do justice in describing you! Remember when we were about ready to graduate from high school and the halls were quite and we were sitting down by the gym on a bench just talking about how far we had come. And then I told you that you were my hero. I just want you to know that you still are! Sure love ya!
ReplyDeleteJenna
(I am grateful to Patrick for taking such good care of you)
I'm not even sure how I found your blog but I have been reading and praying for you. I have a 16 month old baby girl, Annie. I literally feel my heart aching for you and I have cried so many tears for your loss. I simply can't begin to imagine your grief. I am so, so sorry that you are having to live through this. Your testimony and faith are amazing and you are an inspiration to me. I am going to go upstairs and give my Annie another kiss goodnight and say another prayer for you and sweet Preslee. God Bless you.
ReplyDeleteI stay up late at night sometimes to watch the discussions on Doctrine & Covenants on the BYU channel. A few nights ago they were talking about section 138. This section is about the after life. It is a revelation given to Pres. Joseph F. Smith in 1918. Sidenote: If you research him you will find out that he had 45 children and 13 of them preceded him in death. Starting in verse 11 he talks about seeing the spirits of those who have passed on. Verse 13 is my favorite. It says, talking about those spirits who had "been faithful in the testimony of Jesus...", "And who had offered sacrifice in the similitude of the great sacrifice of the Son of God, and had suffered tribulation in their Redeemer's name." So we know that in order to return to our Father we must be faithful, make sacrifices "in the similitude of the great sacrifice of the Son of God", and we MUST suffer tribulation. So remember that every time you encounter tribulation, whether losing a child or losing a job, that this is the only way we can prove to our Father that we are worthy to live with him again. From what I have read I believe that you are definatly proving yourself to be worthy. Thank you for you testimony that you have shared with hundreds of people. What wonderful missionaries you both are. By your example and faith you have and will strengthen many people. Thank you again. And enjoy your trip!
ReplyDeleteI struggled so much when my Mom passed away and I heard one of the apostles talking about the spirit world and I loved the way he described it. He said it's just like when it's dark outside and someone is on the outside of your house looking in, they can see you inside but you can't see them outside. That's how close the spirits are to us. They can see us, they are so close. We just can't see them. I truly can't imagine the heartache you must feel but I do believe with all of my heart that your little Preslee is very close by and will be waiting patiently for you both.
ReplyDeleteHugs from Atlanta, GA
I don't know you or your family but you NEVER cease to amaze me. I am an ER nurse and have seen a lot of people go through a lot of grief. After reading tonights post the thought occured to me that when you and Pat are ready and you should really write a book on grieving and faith. I can only imagine the lives the 3 of you have changed to this point. You speak so beautifully and your spirit is jumping off the computer screen. May you continue to feel our Savior's loving arms around you and your family. Thank you, thank you for your words.
ReplyDeleteI'm also one of those people you don't know. I found your blog obviously off another blog. I've read about your tragic story but yet with your uplifting spirit you guys never cease to amaze me. Your sweet family are in my prayers daily to continue to have the strength. I feel blessed to have come across your blog and cherish my family a little more each day. I'll probably continue to follow your blog just fyi. You both are such amazing testimony builders for me and many other people. Keep on trecking! Heavenly Father certainly has a plan instore for you. And have fun in MEXICO! Can I just say jealous? Thanks for being you and making me know that families are forever :)
ReplyDeleteHello! You don't know me, I found your blog through a friend, and have been following you ever since. I want you to know you have touched me in so many ways. Because of your story I hug my own daughter a little tighter and I try to have more patience when things get hard. Thank you for being a wonderful example of faith and the gospel, my testimony has grown because of you and your husband. I say a prayer for your family every time I read a new post. thank you for sharing all that you do, you have touched my life.
ReplyDeletevisiting your blog is a bit of heaven for me. You're such an inspiration, dear sweet lady. My heart goes out to you in your time of great loss. She'll never be far away from you, I know.
ReplyDeleteIt's about time for Linsy to have her baby, man. I'm proud of you, that's one dang hard thing to do to re visit places. You're stronger than you thought yourself to be when you first had perfect Pres. Love ya
ReplyDeleteChels
PS... You went to zumba without me, what!
Our ward has had a hard week after the news that one of our families lost their nearly 4 year old conjoined twin daughters. It was rather unexpected, not during a risky surgery or anything, and it's been a really emotional week for all of us who love them. Thank you for your testimony that you continue to share. I hope that through your eyes I might know the right things to do to help my friends as they mourn the passing of their daughters. You inspire me to be a more spiritual mother.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing woman! I admire you and Patrick so much!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Ashley, for your inspiring words. This post has given me strength to face my trials with my head held high. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me and I don't know you but I have heard about your loss through friends blogs. I grew up in Rexburg and I was visiting my family in Idaho Falls when the accident happened. My heart sank hearing this and am so sorry for your loss. Loosing a child is one of my worst nightmares. Having the knowledge of the gospel is truly a blessing at times like these.
ReplyDeleteI found your blog through my friend in the Valley Forge ward in PA. I was in that ward for 4 years. It's a great ward!
Anyways, I hope you have a great time in Mexico. My husband has been and promises to take me there someday. We'll see about that!
You are AMAZING!!! What a great example you are to so many people. Thanks for sharing your heart.
ReplyDeleteI found your blog through others when this tragedy occurred. I am so, so, so sorry for this horrible accident that took your sweet daughter. However, I have to tell you, I think you are absolutely amazing. I am completely blown away by how strong you are in the face of this. You have to believe that you are incredible and not many people could have such an outlook after experiencing the loss of a child. What a testament to the gospel you are.
ReplyDeleteI am yet another stranger that has been so touched by your sweet words and the spirit in which you share them. I can't imagine what you might be going through. I didn't realize that you were not there at the time of the accident. It is obvious that you are very close with our beloved Elder Brother, Jesus Christ and you emulate so many of the same amazing qualities that he posseses. I don't want to pretend that I know what you are going through because truly I can't even imagine how hard it must be. I did lose a brother though when he was in the care of someone else. Someone who also loved him. My road to forgiveness was longer than I wish it had been. So many questions, so much hurt. It's hard, yet something I didn't talk about with anyone. Even still almost 20 years later I don't know that he knows I have struggled with the "Why on earth did you not put a helmet on my little brother when you got on that four-wheeler". The main artery that was crushed would have been saved had he had a helmet on. Anyhow, I came across this message this morning. http://www.youtube.com/mormonmessages#p/p
ReplyDeleteYou may have already seen it, but I thought I would share just in case. It surely touched me. I hope you know that you are thought of often, even by complete strangers. We are praying for you.
WOW! You are so strong. You have been in my prayers the last couple of weeks. I found your blog and I am inspired by your strength. Hang in there. My eyes were wet when I read this post. I have felt many of the same emotions. It is so hard and so not fair. I know that you aren't doing this alone. I know that your little Preslee and our savior are right by your side. As a mom that has lost two daughters I wish that I could offer you some words to ease the pain but I can't. There are no words that can do justice of what you are going through. You are in my prayers. Peace be with you until you meet again.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a brave woman. I admire your strength and will think of you and this motto when I need it the most. May God bless you!!
ReplyDeleteOnce again I am touched by your thoughts. You are an amazing person, one who is close to the spirit. All things are possible because of Jesus Christ who knows all and has suffered for all of us. He truely knows of your hurt and pain and struggles, but rejoices in your knowledge and strenght that you have. May you both continue to be blessed and strenghtened and know many are praying for you. You can do hard things.
ReplyDeleteHi.... A friend sent me your site...she is from the same town as you, but does not know you. I am frequently awed when I find blogs, etc of persons who have experienced the loss of a child, as have I...especially when those parents are LDS. I find strength in numbers. I hope you don't mind if I join you in your journey...mine started 5 almost 6 years ago....so maybe we can help each other.
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menarethattheymighthavejoy.blogspot.com
I do not know you but feel so compelled to comment. Amy, for one so young you are so very wise and thoughtful...thoughtful in the sense that you consider and choose your words so wisely. You are both so brave and inspiring. I bet it doesn't feel that way most days. When you find yourself feeling lost, alone or weak...come to this page and feel the embrace of those who know you and those who don't, all of whom love, care for and pray for you!
ReplyDeleteI do now know you but i just wanted to tell you that I think you and your husband are amazing. I have a little girl of my own and i think that if we went through that same experience, I would not handle it as graciuosly as you have. you are such an inspiration to me and I know we are praying for you.
ReplyDeleteYou can do hard things!!! You already have done so many hard things and everything else will pale in comparison with what you have already gone through! You are an inspiration! I love you and your family and Preslee and I've never even met you! Praying for you always!
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Utah
I do not know you, but I have been reading your blog and my prayers go out to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI hope you do not mind, but I would like to use this motto and this story. My dad is fighting cancer right now, and I feel this motto will help us all remember that we can get through this. If you do now wish for me to share your story or your blog post, please tell me.
Thank you for putting your heart out so that we can all learn, grow, and become better people. I know I have- thank you.
Christina
Denver
For everything that you've experienced and gone through, it's so nice to see a strong, sincere, smile on your face. You and Pat are so strong and I look up to you for your valiant courage. You two are walking examples that we all really can do hard things. You've proven that.
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Andyshemi
Thank you for this post. I think we all need to be reminded that we can do hard things...even though most of us haven't been through what you have. I just want you to know that you and Pat are in my prayers. It probably seems hard that life can just go on for everyone else, as you both are finding your way now that your lives have changed so much...but I just wanted you to know that we are continually thinking of you. I really feel that you are helping so many people that you don't even know, just by your faith and testimony! hugs
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ReplyDeleteI just came over and read your tragic yet inspiring story about your sweet little Preslee. I am so very sorry for your loss and will be praying that God continues to provide you all with peace and strength until you are able to hold her again. I posted about your story on my blog and would love to make something for your family in rememberance of Preslee. Please email me at melissajackson10@hotmail.com and I will give you my blog address. I don't want it to seem as though I am advertising on here. You have reminded me to count my blessings and have faith in God each day. Thank you for sharing your story through your pain. I feel like none of this sounds quite right, but I wanted you to know you are in my prayers.
I read your blog often and I hurt for you. It breaks my heart that you lost your beautiful baby girl. I hope as you and Pat continue on this journey that you continue to find strength and comfort just when you need it most. I also hope all the grandparents are doing better. I have 9 grandchildren and I know there is nothing like the love of a grandchild. I watched my grandson when he was 10 months old. He fake coughed sometimes, he loved to do that. He started coughing and we thought he was just playing. He got choked on a piece of plastic and we had ours shoes on, ready to run him to the hospital, when I finally decided to stick my fingers in his mouth and I got it out. It scared me, it was an accident. They happen and sometimes it's out of our control. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I hope you have a wonderful time on your vacation.
ReplyDeleteI keep looking at your blog like it's been updated when I KNOW your in Mexico (wishing I was there with you guys :) ) Hope you're having fun
ReplyDeleteI am sure that sweet little Ivy was sent with the biggest hug EVER from sweet little Preslee! If only that baby could talk...
ReplyDeleteHang in there, you can do hard things!!
Much love sent your way!
Thank you so much for those words! What an inspiring motto! Newborns to carry such a heavenly spirit with them and I am sure Ivy and Preslee had quite the time before she came this earth!
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After reading your blog post. I had a really hard day and remembering that you sad I CAN DO HARD THINGS. I used that through the whole day. Thank You!
ReplyDeletePatrick and Ashley... overwhelmed doesn't even begin to express what I am feeling right now. You don't know me... I was shown your blog by someone who doesn't know you either... but I am so grateful that she did. You two are beyond a doubt the strongest people I have ever had the pleasure to hear about. I am sitting here with tears streaming down my cheeks as I read about your sweet little angel girl. I truly cannot imagine the hurt and pain you feel, but I think I am even more in awe of the constant faith you have had through all of this. This is every parent's worst nightmare... I find myself wondering, what would I do??? I am just so humbled to read of your strength, courage, and unwaivering faith in our Savior and His diving plan for all of us. I feel truly honored to have read about your sweet family. Many prayers and well wishes are being sent to you. Thank you for building my testimony. Much love, Laura Miller (Chandler, AZ)
ReplyDeleteYou dont know me but I am grateful that I have been able to read your blog and read your story. Thank you for your strength and testimony. I love that saying too!! I also love your post about service. I serve in Young Women's and my lesson tomorrow is on service. I hope your okay with me reading that post to them. I think it will help the Young Women like it has helped me. You are an inspiration to many around you. Thank you! May God always be with you!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing person! Thanks for your words, they always give me courage and help me to be a better person.
ReplyDeleteI can do hard things. That is so simple yet so hard. Thank you for sharing. You don't know me but I have followed your blog since the accident. I am touched by your words, you have a beautiful way of writing. I lost my little brother 14 years ago on 8/23/96. I remember the first time I had to go back to SLC where he spent 3 weeks in the hospital in a coma. The very thought of it made me ill. It was so hard to get up the guts to get there, but then when I got there I was fine. And then out of nowhere even 14 years later I will think of him and be crying like it was yesterday that he died. Thanks for sharing your story. You are an incredible person.
ReplyDeleteWhat a good message. Thank you for sharing that. Even though I cry every time I read your blog, I'm grateful to hear of your strength.
ReplyDeleteMuch peace and love
Morgan
Thank so much for sharing your journey even though it is a difficult one.
ReplyDeleteYou and your family have touched so many people with your story.
You have brought so many of us closer to where we should be.
Ashley, I heard about your little girl through my sister-in-law. She's an EMT for Menan so she heard the calls. I have thought of your family often since that day. A few days ago I found and read your blogs. I realized we had people in common. My sister and Cara were good friends growing up.
ReplyDeleteI am so amazed at your strength and faith. Keep your head up ! Ginger (Cummings) Youngstrom
I don't even have words.
ReplyDeleteBless you in this journey. Love and laugh and live. Shine.... she would want you to.
XO's Aminta
Ashley,
ReplyDeleteI just want you to know that you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. You don't know me, but I have been following your blog. My heart aches for you. I cannot even fathom what you and your husband are going through. My husband and I went to the temple last week, and your family kept popping into my mind throughout the session. It made me sad to think about what your poor little family is going through, and yet, there was also peace. I imagined little Preslee all dressed in white, waiting patiently on the other side of the veil for her mommy and daddy to greet her. What a beautiful glorious sight it will be one day when that sweet reunion occurs! Hang in there until then, taking each day one step at a time! Families are Forever! I believe it with all my heart!!! May the Lord bless you and tenderly hold you both in the hollow of his hand, while your broken hearts try to heal. May you find peace and joy in your memories, and comfort and hope in the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and the promise that Families Can Be Together Forever!!
Love,
Becca Anderson
Yet again you amaze me!!! You are such an amazing woman ashley! You have taught me such great things!! I am still praying for you, I hope things get better!
ReplyDeleteI heard about your story from a friend on facebook. My heart goes out to you and your family. Your strength amazes me. I, too, am LDS. Having the knowledge we have of an afterlife together definetly is comforting, still I am in awe at your story. I think of you often and pray your heart can be lightened.
ReplyDeleteash, thank you so much for this post. your strength is so inspiring to me.... I hope so day to have a percentage of your faith and strength.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a strong woman. I am amazed at your strength. But, then i think of the comfort our Heavenly Father can bring to those who have faith in His plan. Knowing that you WILL see and hold your beautiful daughter again can bring peace and hope. Many thoughts and prayers to you and your husband.
ReplyDeleteI love the new look of the blog- but a head's up- in the "about us" section, you weren't married on 8.03.10.
ReplyDeleteThank you for continuing to post amidst your suffering. I am strengthened by your example and faith. :) Love the next look of your blog, too!
ReplyDeleteI have been reading for a long time now. I was friends with Annalee Taylor in high school and so I knew Pat fairly well, so I have been "blog-stalking" for awhile. I have been contemplated leaving a comment for a long time but feel silly I guess since we don't know each other-all though you look super familiar. . .anyway I just want to say thank you. My husband keeps asking me to stop reading your blog because every-time I do I bawl. . .like body shaking sobs. I am so impressed with your strength, thank you so much for sharing with the world your pain and your spirit. It has changed my life. My testimony has been strengthened, and my biggest fears have been laid out and shown that they can be overcome. I pray for you daily, and have such love and appreciation for you. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteYour blog looks awesome, I love it!Looking forward to hearing about your trip. I hope it was wonderful! Still praying for you and your family, I hope you are still being carried by our Loving Heavenly Father, forever.
ReplyDeleteMy name is Staci. A friend shared your blog with me when Preslee's accident first happened. I've lurked, and read, and prayed for your family. I am so sorry for your loss, and your pain. I wanted to thank you for all you've shared, especially your many testimonies of faith and the love God and Jesus have for us. This past month has been very trying for me and my family, in a totally different way, but one that still rips your heart out. Your faith and testimonies have helped me through days I thought I'd never survive. Thank-you.
ReplyDeleteI am friends with Ann Clark, and I heard about sweet Preslee when the accident happened, and Ann just gave me your blog address to read. My heart and prayers go out to you at this time. Thank you for sharing your lots and helping us all to become better people, your strength is very admirable!
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog through Nie. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter Preslee. I just thought that I would let you know my little mantra that helps me deal with living well with two chronic health conditions is this: I am stronger than I think. I can do hard things! There are times that I repeat it over and over. Eventually, it does start to sink in. I will say some prayers for you and your family. Congrats on being a new Auntie again! Don't babies just smell like heaven? It is intoxicating! :0)
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you,
Evonne
You'll never know how much this post has helped me. Thank you for your words.
ReplyDeletei will remember this forever. i can do hard things.
ReplyDeletethank you for your words of strength and weaknesses. you are so beautiful.
you are in my prayers.
OH my heart. I have been sobbing as I read Preslee's story. May the Lord continue to strengthen you. You are such an inspiration and a reminder to me to love the everyday experiences of mothering my 4 gifts from God. Thank you for your example. We can do hard things!
ReplyDeleteGod Bless You and Pat!
I stumbled on your blog and all I can say is that you both are amazing. God be with you.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story and inspiring me to be a better mom. I can not imagine the pain you had to go through and are still going through. But I am thankful that you can share it with us, and help other people like me be a better person. I am a Mormon but I have not been living my life like I should be. Just reading your blog I can fill the spirit. Your spirit is so strong and your husbands. I want that in my life and had it at one time but some how I lost it and let it go. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thanks Again Bethany
ReplyDeletePatrick and Ashley: I have not tread in your footsteps exactly, but I am so glad that you know the Plan of Salvation and have it to comfort you. Some days, it is the only "glue" that keeps me together. Your family will be added to the list of people that I pray for. It is the least I can do ;-)
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me...but my heart has been touched deeply, this post especially, I have something I would love to send to you, is there an address that I may do so? Please feel free to e-mail me if so: kimsueellen@gmail.com. My heart and thoughts and prayers with you. xo
ReplyDeletePatrick and Ashley,
ReplyDeleteI don't know you but you have touched my life greatly and I would like to say thank you. Sharing your story has taught me that each day is to be celebrated. To take my focus off of my trials and to focus on what is really important. To be thankful for all I have and for the people in my life. You have made me a better friend, wife, and most importantly a better mother.
You are both strong and beautiful people. Preslee is blessed to have you as her parents for eternity. May the Lord continue to bless your family.
My thoughts and prayers are with you daily.
Ashley,
ReplyDeleteI have never met you before- I somehow stumbled across your blog through connections from other blogs. I just wanted you to know that I appreciate your strong testimony and I admire the courage of you and your husband through what I can imagine was the most difficult time in both your lives. I love the fact that you have taken your hardships and turned it in to such a beautiful testimony of your faith. I think many of us can learn from your example of being able to truly see the positive in the trials we are given. I dont know many people who could do the same if they were put in your shoes.
I just want you to know that although I have only read just a few of your posts, i feel this tremendous love emanating from your words and it has already had such an impact on me. Never, EVER change. I truly mean that. your example has blessed so many and I know that you will continue to bless others in your future. what a powerful gift. I have faith that the Lord has amazing blessings in store for you and your husband in return. Thank you for sharing your story in such a beautiful way. I will never forget your strength and the love you have for the Lord.
I read your story for the first time this morning. Because of you, I will hug my kids a little tighter today and say a longer prayer of gratitude than I normally do while I take the sacrament this morning. When I was at the temple a couple of months ago, the phrase "I can do hard things" came to my mind. It isn't exactly a catch phrase yet and I know I hadn't seen it recently. I know it was placed there a reminder from the Holy Ghost. Same way I know you received it too.
ReplyDeleteWell wishes to your family this day and always as you continue your journey. Thank you for enriching mine.
I want to thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for showing me how to love a complete stranger. I am the mother of a 15 month old daughter, Ava Grace, and I can see her in your daughter (the resemblance is unreal). I love how Preslee's song describes her as having sweet fire in her eyes. I've never quite known how to describe my daughter but that is perfect! My heart aches for the pain your arms must feel not being able to old your precious baby girl in your arms and I am sorry you have to endure this pain, but I am so appreciative of your amazing attitude. You remind me a lot of a couple friend of ours; last December the wife gave birth to triplets at 25 weeks. They each weighed in around 1 lb. The girl died briefly after birth and the two boys hung on for 7 days until they passed away as well. The strength our friends showed during such an indescribable event was unwavering and reminded me so much of you and your husband. On January 1, 2011 (nearly one year to the day they lost their babies)they welcomed a little boy. The joy is overwhelming! I am so thankful you too will soon be welcoming another addition into your family, not to replace the memories you have of Preslee but to add to them. I can just see them talking and her telling her little sibling how lucky (s)he is to be going to such a wonderful family! Your strength during the unthinkable has helped reevaluate what is truly important and how to embrace Ava Grace and her sweet fire even when she is throwing a tantrum in public! Thank you for showing me true Christlike love through your posts and glorifying Him during the unexpected hard times, glimmer of hope through miracles and then the sad loss of losing your child. Thank you so much for your strength and through the grace and mercy of our Heavenly Father you will find strength through anything...like you said you can do hard thing! If you find yourself having a really tough day two of my favorite songs are by Hilary Weeks 1)Just Let Me Cry and 2)He Will Carry You. I'm sure you've already heard them but she has a way of saying exactly how you feel but can't put into words. I wish you and your husband the best and will have you in our family's prayers.
ReplyDeleteI'm a few months behind, but I read your sweet daughter's story and I just love your motto, "I CAN DO HARD THINGS." My mom always told us that growing up and there have been countless times that I've told myself that and have been able to carry on. Your testimony is beautiful. I wish you the very best with your new little one to come!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing this post! I have just found your blog and just read your preslee's story. I needed this blog post today. My son was born November 13 2008 at 22 weeks and 4 days. He lived for an amazing 2 hours and then passed on. Its been over 2 years and I have yet gone to a baby shower and I can count on my one had how many babies I have held. This will be my new motto I can do the hard things. Like go to the 2 baby showers I need to next month and Hold these babies when they are born! Thank you SO SO much you are such an inspiration to me. Your unwavering faith is so helpful to me. I started going back to church shortly after Kenner was born. AND then a stopped going because a baby was born around the time he was due. I have not been back since Mothers day 2009. I CAN DO THE HARD THINGS like face that child who would be the same age as my angel! THANK YOU SO MUCH
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you even check the comments any more, but I came across your blog today and read Preslee's story. It has done something for me that I can never fully thank you for. My older sister drowned when she was 3. I never fully appreciated the courage and pain experienced by my parents - especially my mother. She has never doubted that Kristen went to Heaven or that they could be reunited with her. With four children of my own now, I can more fully understand and appreciate the strength that has been shown by you as well as my own mother. I don't know if this is coming across right, but I needed to read your story to understand and honor my own parents, who I feel I have grown apart from. I admire and appreciate your faith. Thank you for sharing your light. May you continue to feel God's peace as you move forward toward a wonderful reunion someday with your precious 'Jo Jo'.
ReplyDeleteI have to first tell you that leaving a comment on a strangers blog is not something I ever do, but I can not deny that I was led to your tragic but beautiful and courageous story tonight for a reason. Last August, a man entered into an LDS church in Visalia, CA and shot and killed my Brother who was serving as Bishop of his ward there. I had never in my life experienced a pain and sorrow so great. Like you, I have spent a lot of time on my knees, and I have felt a strength way beyond my own understanding and have had many tender experiences that have confirmed the Lord working in the details of my life. But 6 months later, I still have to decide each day if I am going to let losing my brother paralyze me, OR be grateful for the trial as it has allowed me to gain a clear perspective of the purpose of this life. For some reason, today has been tough, and I spent the first half of the day feeling 'broken', a feeling I haven't had for a while. Once I caught on to what was going on inside me, and began to seek for help through prayer... things started happening... some little [like my girl scout cookies being delivered :)or an unexpected phone call from a cousin], and some bigger [like reading your story]. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your testimony and your thoughts. I feel at peace again. I can do hard things. I can. I will.
ReplyDeleteI love this post. I needed a little reminder that I too can do hard things. We lost our first little baby, Cali, at 7 days old back in 2009 and even tho many of the "hard things" we've been thu and have handled, some of them still pop up from time to time and I really needed this reminder at this time, so thank you. May God continue to be with you through your journey. Oh, and congratulations on #2! Having #2 has been a huge comfort and blessing to my husband and I!
ReplyDeleteAshley, Thank you for sharing! My mom found your blog through face book and I have been following your blog sense last summer. This particular post has helped me a lot, and many times. Even though I'm just a high schooler and probably overexagerate things- I think about you and say, "I can do hard things." thank you for sharing your story and experiences with us.
ReplyDeleteHi Ashley and Patrick,
ReplyDeleteMy name is Elisabeth Fish, and I am one of the many mothers who have been blessed by your kindness. I received an awesome bag full the things that every parent needs during an unexpected hospital stay. I could tell that the contents of that bag were created by someone who had significiant experience with a stressful hospital stay. Many times we have fought for our daughter's life. Our daughter has spent may days and months at PCMC (sometimes in the PICU). She is seven years old now, we have been in and out of the hospital for six of the seven years We belong to the Hemotology/Oncology clinic. Basically what I want to say is that we recently found out that our baby who is 18 months old (Alice) was just diagnosed wtih a similar thing as our seven year old. I was so overwhelmed and wanted to cry and pretend it wasn't happening, then someone brought me the bag that you had created. I can't tell you how much that impressed me. I read your story and it made me cry...I have adopted your phrase "I can do hard things" My baby is the same age Preslee was at the time of her accident. I felt like suddenly I could manage because she is here and I kept thinking of you and others who have been through much harder things. I wanted to hug you, even though I have never met you. Just know that you have helped me A LOT. I feel stronger now and I know that I really can do hard things. Thanks so much!
You don't know me, but I was looking at some old posts on my friend's blog, and she had put a link to your blog.
ReplyDeleteAs I am sitting here reading sweet Preslee's story, I am sobbing. I cry because, as a mother, I cannot imagine what that would be like to experience the things you have. And, I also cry because of what strong examples you guys are and thinking about the service you guys have received. I hope you guys truly know that you are such incredible examples of faith and perseverance. It took a lot of courage to document your story and broadcast it for others to see. I truly believe that your sweet little girl was such a courageous and perfect and righteous spirit that came to this earth for such a short time, but she had such a profound mission in life, which she fulfilled beautifully. I also think you & your husband have a similar profound mission, in that you've been able to touch the lives of so many people, many of whom were complete strangers. I admire you, and I just hope I can live my life in a similar way, doing good and being a light to others.
I've learned one of the hardest things about tragedies is that over time the cards, flowers, sympathies, etc. can fade. But I know that your memories of your sweet little girl and those emotions never go away and can unexpectedly strongly resurface at times. So just know that you are still making an impact & someone is still (or beginning to) praying for you guys. May God bless you and your family!!:)
i love the way you're able to share on your blog. Something that resonated with me about this post and helped me in my battle to do hard things is this idea that avoiding those places of hurt won't always help me heal and that sometimes it may in fact help. I love that you muster your courage by telling yourself that you can do hard things. I think that is part of knowing what it means to be a daughter of God.
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